Radiohead claims 15 steps...

So today J and I talked for the first time directly about all this stuff and I know the first thing I need to do is outline my abstinance and food plan.  I'm sure it will need revision as I learn about myself more but here's what I have.  and admittedly I had to gank J's stuff to have some point of reference.  Part of my disorder is that I don't know what is normal what is okay what is not okay and to some extent everyone is different but I NEED a point of reference otherwise I don't stick to anything because I can't tell if I'm being crazy or not.

Abstinance:

-No purging of any kind ie. laxitive tea (the major culprit), vomiting

-No Dieting

-No compulsive exercising

-Recognize self destructive talk/thinking and replace with positive mantra's 

Food Plan: it makes me nervous to make on at all, I'll just admit it.  Right now I just stole J's so I can start somewhere.  I tweaked it a little for my needs

-Eat a meal/snack every 2-4 hours

-Set out entire meal/snack on a plate with a defined quantity

-Eat a balance of Protein, Fat, Carb at each meal/snack

-No candy, dessert, recreational sugar, added refined sugar, deep fried, greasy fatty food

-Say mealtime prayer for the awareness to know when I am full and the willingness to stop at that point (new for me, I haven't prayed in a long long time)

And now I have a starting point and that's the best place to be right now.  I have so much going on in my brain and I'm too tired to write it all out.  I am having trouble sitting still and I don't want to focus so I will write later.