Actions that can cause a person to lose weight are exercise, eating less calories than are expended, speeding up the metabolism through exercise or supplements, sweating (a whole hell of a lot, but I'm trying to be thorough), ceasing exercise(losing muscle)
2. Which of these strategies have you tried? to what extent? were you consistent?
2. Which of these strategies have you tried? to what extent? were you consistent?
Oh god, I've tried exercise, eating less calories than I expend, speeding up my metabolism through exercise (strength training) and supplements (ephedrine, chromium picolinate), sweating, I've never tried stopping exercise.
3. How have these efforts backfired?
3. How have these efforts backfired?
When I exercised I have gained muscle and gained weight. I have lost weight through exercise in the past, but not recently and not always in the past. I have eaten less calories and lost weight but I have also eaten less calories (or I thought I was eating fewer calories) and stayed the same or gained weight. I have never really seen a difference in my weight or metabolism through taking supplements.
4. Does it feel like you're doing everything you should be doing? Trying as hard as you can? Doing everything right? Yes and no. I feel like I have eaten moderately and worked out and I should be losing weight. I should be an ideal body. Except you know I don't understand what to eat so I eat wierdly. I'm trying but I feel confused all the time.
4. Does it feel like you're doing everything you should be doing? Trying as hard as you can? Doing everything right? Yes and no. I feel like I have eaten moderately and worked out and I should be losing weight. I should be an ideal body. Except you know I don't understand what to eat so I eat wierdly. I'm trying but I feel confused all the time.
5. What more could you possibly be doing? Is this something that you realistically feel you are capable of doing/maintaining? I could be dieting more strictly, I could be working out at a higher intensity.. I always work out pretty moderately. I think I could be capable of say running and doing intensive strength workouts if I had a trainer. I'm not certain I would lose weight doing it though.
6. What in your history leads you to believe that you can control your weight? When I was anorexic and I stopped eating I lost wieght. THere have been phases in my life where I changed something and lost weight. When I was on the Atkins diet I lost weight for a good two years. When I went to Japan I lost weight from just stress and lack of sleep. I would walk for hours every day because there was nothing to do. So there have been times where I thought I controlled my wieght. But now similar attempts don't work but I wonder if its just that I'm not disciplined enough...
7. If you had any power to control this, how can you explain the fact that you have been unable to do so? the only explainations I can come up with are I'm not doing it right, my body decided it's not going to change regardless of what I put in it or expend, or I'm not actually out of control it's just my perception
8. What is keeping you from admitting that you are powerless? What do you gain from the illusion of power? Is that something you are willing to give up for a chance at something better? I want to admit that I am powerless but I have been taught and have seen that people control thier own lives. I have watched people change thier body's for good. I have seen people turn into athletes because they chose to. Every failure of mine is a failure I own because I have the capability to CHOSE. I have the resources to learn and the ability to decide what I put into my body and what I do with my body. So it seems that admitting I am powerless is a cop out for a situation I own. I did this, I made the decisions that made me fat. I want to give up the illusion of power but I don't want to mess up. I don't want to give up the idea that I have power if I'm going to ruin myself again. I want to give it up knowing that it will work. But you never know anything will work until you dive in. So I guess I'm willing :) It's funny because at this moment the song that's playing on my playlist is called "Giving Up" by Ingrid Michaelson and she says she's giving up looking for greener grasses.
6. What in your history leads you to believe that you can control your weight? When I was anorexic and I stopped eating I lost wieght. THere have been phases in my life where I changed something and lost weight. When I was on the Atkins diet I lost weight for a good two years. When I went to Japan I lost weight from just stress and lack of sleep. I would walk for hours every day because there was nothing to do. So there have been times where I thought I controlled my wieght. But now similar attempts don't work but I wonder if its just that I'm not disciplined enough...
7. If you had any power to control this, how can you explain the fact that you have been unable to do so? the only explainations I can come up with are I'm not doing it right, my body decided it's not going to change regardless of what I put in it or expend, or I'm not actually out of control it's just my perception
8. What is keeping you from admitting that you are powerless? What do you gain from the illusion of power? Is that something you are willing to give up for a chance at something better? I want to admit that I am powerless but I have been taught and have seen that people control thier own lives. I have watched people change thier body's for good. I have seen people turn into athletes because they chose to. Every failure of mine is a failure I own because I have the capability to CHOSE. I have the resources to learn and the ability to decide what I put into my body and what I do with my body. So it seems that admitting I am powerless is a cop out for a situation I own. I did this, I made the decisions that made me fat. I want to give up the illusion of power but I don't want to mess up. I don't want to give up the idea that I have power if I'm going to ruin myself again. I want to give it up knowing that it will work. But you never know anything will work until you dive in. So I guess I'm willing :) It's funny because at this moment the song that's playing on my playlist is called "Giving Up" by Ingrid Michaelson and she says she's giving up looking for greener grasses.
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Are you satisfied that you have answered the questions completely? Check, and see if there is anything you want to add. Then, when you're ready, I'll give you the questions from the OA work book. Here's the first one:
1. "In OA, we are encouraged to take a good look at our compulsive eating, and the self-destructive things we have done to avoid obesity- the dieting, starving, over-exercising, purging..."
a.)What solutions have I tried, and what were the results?
b.)am I still looking for a solution outside OA?
c.)How have I used food, exercising, dieting...to escape life's problems?
d.)are there any particular foods or eating behaviors that always give me trouble? triggers?
e.)here is a complete inventory or my dieting/overexercising/self destructive history...
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